Lightprincess and the cruel world………

hello….

after long am writing something for my blog.. well i had been quite busy with exams n all.. n now am free….well since once week! but didnt get enough time to write something here..

so today am going to write about my idea about my perfect end of year.since my mood not that ok ok.. i duno how am going to visualize it ..neways lets see…i have always been thinking about how i want my next year to be..but never thought of how i want the current year to end..strange nah?

hmm am still thinking of my perfect end of year……..mayb…..i just want to spend some time with my family…..in peace!n……if there is any misunderstanding with anyone to clear it up …….and……may be put aside all the sad moments.. learn from them.. n yea! i soo wanted get rid of some few things in my life..n i think i will put in to end at this end of year :X……..

n……….thats it! i dont really have big plans…….just want that..the moments i have gone through in my life during this year..help me to learn about life n move on..i relaly dont have big idea about perfect end of year!! bcz.i dont party……so will spend time with family and cousinss

i wish everyone a happy new year 2008 in advance! n may this bring u people lotss of love and happiness…….n may God bless all of u with a good end of year..which freshens you people up to face a new year with lots of hurdles n good moments too! so All the best

Your unconditional love for me

Will it last till my last breath

Or is it just an illusion

Which upon stepping into reality

Everything going to fade away

In a spur of the moment

Whenever you not with me

A void of sadness fills my heart

Is the the fear of losing you

Or just the fact I cant miss you

My heart wants to cry itself out

Sole company of mine are tears

Being my support to live without you

Each of my hear beat

Calls your name hundreds time

For each second that goes by

Preferable will it b to me

Someone plunge in a knife

Taking out my heart

That missing you to such an extent

Where breathing seems impossible

Friends!!!! they are the most …….well i duno how to define! but yet these are the persons with whom u have lotsa fun……even in the most boring placess and am very lucky to have lots of nice….caring n cute FRIENDS…i wish i could have written these words in colours. but i guess there is no colour thing here nah …. they are the ones who add colours..to our lives……….making it more interesting….lively…..n worth while……mayb its bcz its us who can choose them……contrary to other relations…… i dunoo….. but watever the reason behind…it is ********* ….a mysterious one …ahum ahum…. soooooo……..i got lots of frends……all of them are very special to me…..all in their own ways   i appreciate each one of them but yet there are some with whom am closer….like can share everything with him or her…….. at times…..the ones whom u didnt think to get along with bcomes one of ur closest frends!!! unbelievable nah but yet it is! At times u just have adjust a lil bit but come on!! who is perfect on this earth!!no one soooooo………..:D…… i think that…..everyone can say to b frends…..but gud frends are very few…….the ones who will stay by ones side in difficult moment……n wipe off ur tears……make u smile wen u feel really low…….  but now there are few like that……..many of ur “frend” remembers u wen they really need something!!! i really hate this kinda of people……..but yet……there are so many like these nowadayz……..got to live in ….. like in the society……its ” survival of the fittest”…. …………… my frends have a really important place in my life…….n i realy wish that they always remain soo i have nver had….the “best frend” but i have had very good frends!!! n they are more than enough wish that they always remain in my life forever:D

by Kaunie Hagensen I could write you a letter,
But what would it say?
Could it make things better?
Would it make everything okay?

I could write you a song,
Full of love hope and grace.
Would you tell me what went wrong?
Could you say it to my face?

I could make a telephone call,
And listen as you cried
But I would not let you fall,
And if you did, we’d both know I tried.

I could make the world go away
But would that be what you like?
You would miss the golden sunrays
You would miss the moonlight.

I could stop all this pain
Bring it all to an end
The tears would fall like rain
On the shoulder of a dear friend.

ummm…Right now its 6.20p.m..me not knowing where to start….there is so much to say! lets seee…….everyday i say to myself…..today am going to do something nicee…..and prepare a nice schedule but do i follow it??? NOOOOOOO i cant!! its like everytime i find something else to doo….so wats the point of making a time table ???…. everyday its like…No tom i will do for sure…but yet tom never comes….everyone knows it.. like yesterday i started to write a post…..wrote some lines……..and someone came online very happy!! it was like ” go to hell post” ……but today i have decided to write something….should nah…bcz my readers must b waiting to read them hahahhaha….**liE**… umm soo……today hasnt been a really nice day for me ..actually a bad one…!! but watever ! like roush has posted…. ” why me???”" its exactly wat i thought!! kind like normal behaviour…..Everyone always wish that only nice things happening to us…..but it cant!!! bcz hard times is the only thing which help us to improve ourselves…. So now we should b saying.. ” y not mee???” well i do really hope i wil b able to do soo!! but i really doubt….uffff………Bcz am like those gurls nah who always keep complaining about things… like never nice things has never ever happend to me!! but its an absolute lie!! Am sure it does…..but its me who keeps ignoring them…… and keep fixing on the bad side of things…well i do really wish that i change…hehe right now someone came online well a good frend…….but am going to finish my post first then will talk The normal conversation for me is like:

Frend: ” how are u”

me: am okk…

frend : And ur day??

me: finee…….well not bad!

Silence for some mins : everyday we talk …….so its like no conversation left! lolzz

Frend: anything new???

ME: noooo……….same old boring life ! thats my answer ** liar**

Its totally false…….bcz am sure everyday something new happens……at times good and others bad…… but i cant see!! ” am i blind?? ” well i dont think soo ….its just bcz nothing which i want has happend!! Wel….i think its one of the worst attitude a person can have… Like ignoring everything… and everyone around………..some people’s life are much worst than mine……..well i got everything……..mayb some few things i got it in minimum about but yet! i got nothing to complain about…….i got a nice family…..very caring… and good frendss…….who likes me…..and so do i……. but still at times i want to b alone……..y? wel i duno u surely would want to know the answer……… but one thing is for sure is that…. watever happens is for the best……At times u lose something which u really like…..or u dont obtain something which u really wanted……. but am sure……that one surely has obtained lots of other nice things…….. but…!!!yet …* sighs** at times our lives keep revolving around us……ME mE and ME!!! my life!! my wishes!! thats all……………egoistic world…. well i duno wat i said is really relevant but…………i duno…..am bit down soo i may have talked nonsense…….those who read it then…..thanks take carez……….will post next time am down lolzz……….nah now its 6.45p.m